My views as a fetishist, cam girl and porn producer can be found all over this blog, informing and destigmatizing online sex work in the XXI Century. However, many are curious to know who the people that play with me are

There is a lot of judgment towards people who watch porn or dare to indulge in their own fantasies and I'm here to show you that, not only these habits are actually healthy to one's own sex life but also the clients of sex workers are just regular human beings with just a bit more sexual creativity than most

To satisfy your curiosity, in this article I'm going to talk about the real man behind a very intricate sissy fantasy. It's been 5 years of intense and long roleplays almost every week, where I've helped him build amazing scenarios within his own fetishes and desires. For privacy, I'll call him R.

I also would like to make it clear that this piece is written not only with the full consent of R, but it was actually his own idea!

The Man Behind the Fantasy

There's a popular concept that people in a position of power and responsibility often get attracted to play a submissive role in their sexuality. The freedom to let go, to be taken care of and breaking the rules of what society expects of them is very appealing, especially for powerful men. This is scientifically proven and R checks all the boxes.

A wealthy businessman, a masterful boss who's built a large company and is in charge of the livelihood of many families, R is a rising star in his industry numbering several big successes at a young age. With great power comes great responsibility and he is aware of his position.

R also comes from a very traditional family, where he's expected not only to bear the family's reputation but also to act in a very masculine way, always stern and without demonstrating his feelings.

Fulfilling all these expectations gives little to no room for R to explore his own wishes, as he is so given and generous in all the aspects of life he almost doesn't think about himself. But he has found an outlet to act toward his desires! R was brave enough to recognize his own needs even when his fantasies go against societal norms.

That's how his submissive fantasy took form and he became Princess R - a married man who's turned into a sissy princess by his lovely wife, forcing him to accept her romantic adventures with other men and eventually made to experiment with homosexuality, all the while with a touch of humiliation and sadomasochism.

The names of these fetishes are commonly treated as: sissification / feminization, cuckolding, humiliation, SPH (small penis humiliation), and impact play. I'll analyze each aspect of his fantasies.

And for clarification, every time I say "R", I'm talking about the real person with he/him pronouns, and "Princess R" the character in the roleplay with she/her pronouns.

How We Met

I still remember that Saturday afternoon in 2016 when R added me on Skype asking if I did texting roleplay sessions, then he sent me a draft of his main fantasies to see if that's something I was interested in playing. I was very impressed from the very beginning on how complex the whole story was, little did I know how much it would evolve!

The initial guidelines included physical descriptions of the main characters (Princess R, her wife and a teacher mistress), a list of trigger words to be used and also words that shouldn't be used, besides examples of how Princess R should be subjugated (through dress up as a little girl, dialogues focused on small penis humiliation and physical punishments).

I find it very important in any roleplay session to ask for turn-ons and limits, since we are dealing with delicate matters and certain words and scenarios that could be offensive when out of context. The fact that R has put so much time and energy into creating this perfect detailed idea was spectacular and made me want to work with him even more.

Honestly, anyone who wants to play out a good roleplay should follow R's example and put some thought into it, I promise you it will be rewarding!

With all this in mind, our sessions easily expanded in many ways. First regular sexting in which we interacted creating the story. After I got the mojo on R's fantasies, we got into storytelling sessions. I'd plan a whole story with beginning and end, and write it in real time, while R would just tell me if he wanted me to spend more time on a certain scene or pick up the pace on another.

R allowed himself to experiment. Although the main story never changed - Princess R is always married to a loving hotwife who dresses him up like a little girl - other elements were more fluid. I think it's amazing to observe how sexual fantasies are not set in stone and accept that we go through phases.

The main story changed a lot, the physical punishments increased for a while, and then disappeared almost completely. On the other hand, cuckolding and gay scenes were only briefly mentioned in the past, later becoming a very important part of the story with full dialogues and descriptions.

Scenes about how the wife fell out of love with Princess R became abundant, then backpedaling and finishing with words of love and encouragement and passionate lovemaking between the couple. These "aftercare" sessions are very important in a healthy Domme/sub dynamic and I'm always very happy to perform it even if only a few minutes, it leaves us with a good taste in our mouth.

Many years went by until one day R decided he wanted me to write him a whole novel. I confess a part of me was apprehensive with such a big project, but I decided to accept and see how it would go. It took me a few months to finish and I'll forever be grateful to R for trusting me and giving me the opportunity to write my first book, with over 50 thousands words.

I have been making short stories for him since writing is one of my passions, and apparently reading is one of his. Our longest session was over 12 hours long, and I still got a callus in one of my fingers from typing that much! LOL

This ongoing experience with R allowed me to meet the real person behind the fantasy, a sweet and kind human being that loves to read and watch movies just like me, someone who's dedicated to his work and craft, just like me. I was able to see R as more than a client, but a friend.

Every time I'm granted the opportunity to get to know a client for who he really is, I'm always delighted in what I find: an Interesting person I'd not have the chance to meet otherwise. They are regular people in the way that there's nothing wrong or corrupt about them, yet unique in how they touch my life and bring so much to my own fantasies and personal pleasure when they open up about their own.

I'm thankful every time a client lets me see who's behind the fantasy. And I'm thankful for R for confiding in me his real self.

Now that you know that sex workers' clients have normal lives and interests, that they could be anyone, a family member, an old friend and even your boss (in R's case!). I'll dive into every aspect of this incredible fantasy, analyzing each aspect from my own point of view in the next article of the series.

Stay Tuned!